Yesterday for your birthday we went to the cemetary and cleaned off your headstone. Then we frosted cupcakes and blew out candles. Jaxon was more excited about trying each and every cupcake than just sticking to one, but it was fun. Cambria and Cobie helped Daddy brush off your headstone and they blew out the candles for you. We let balloons go and left one for you girls to share. We also left some stuffed animals. Cobie was sad because he had wanted to "sleep at your stone" the night before, but I told him he couldn't.
Today we all went to the hospitals and gave presents to the babies who shared your birthday. Five girls and twin boys. Cobie asked if the boys were your boyfriends. We gave the girls some dresses left over from last year and some hats. The boys got a hat from last year and a bib. We love giving presents to the babies. It is one of our favorite traditions. We wish we could be giving you two gifts, but this will do for now.
I miss you two so much. This time of year is so difficult as I am reminded of all that we went through together. July 5th was the first day I really knew something was wrong, and August 14th was day you were buried. It seems like everyday there was something else that had gone wrong. There are days that I wish I could go back to when you were with me. I'd go through it all again just to hold you each one more time. I hope you both had a Happy Birthday. I hope this year you each got a pink bike with streamers on the handlebars!! I love you!!
Suzette, keep hanging in there! I don't know what to say for comfort besides to just hang in there and pray a lot. From my own experiences, I KNOW that Heavenly Father will NEVER leave you comfortless. You may have to search and search and search some more for the comfort at times, but I KNOW it's there! Pain isn't fun. I always say I'm allergic to it. I only wish sometimes. Hang in there! And please, call me any time! And I mean that!
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